vivid dreams & ringing the bell on chemo
I RANG THE BELL ON CHEMO!!! 🎀
As of September 2, 2025, I have finished all of my chemotherapy. I am so proud of myself, omg. I keep telling people that I feel like I can do anything now. This journey has tested my strength in ways I didn’t think possible. But I preserved. I made it. The beginning used to feel so far away from here. In the beginning, I was trying to brace myself mentally bc they said it would be the fight of my life (that is an understatement). & now that I’ve made it through the first part of this journey, I’m like “damn, it flew by.”
My support system is everything. My husband, my mom, my sister, my best friends, my cat!!! Everyone around me has really shown me how loved I am & for that I am sooo grateful. To be loved by so many people that they will make time out of their day to come support me as I ring the bell. Like…the crew SHOWED OUT.
& my Mama is just so amazing. Yesterday I asked her what I would do w/o her. She said I would be okay. & I said “I wouldn’t be no good w/o you.” I hope she knows that fr.
I can’t wait to return the love to everyone who has supported me through this. I have such great examples to follow.
I take medicine for nightmares that cause my regular dreams to be vivid asf. It’s like watching a damn movie, I promise.
Last night, I dreamt about my grandmother who raised me once again. I just giggle at myself now bc I’ve been dreaming about her so much lately & I am not surprised. She will always be my number 1. I miss her so much. I can’t believe it’s been 10 years since she left me. I wish she could see my growth.
In my dream last night, we were arguing, lol. She dropped me off at school or something before she had to go to work & when we pulled up to the school, I said “Mama I’m sorry, I can’t go in there. I left my cap at home.” She started cussin. In my dream, I’m still bald from the chemo but when I looked in the mirror, I noticed some of my hair was starting to grow back. It made me smile so wide & I looked so pretty. ☺️ I ended up waking up so idk if we went to go get my hat, but the arguing was so spot on. “Raven, I gotta go to work!” 😭🤣
I wonder how soon I’ll have my hair back? It was so long. I also still don’t know if I’m going to cut it the same way it was.
this is what my hair looked like before the chemo
I am grateful to be, do & exist. I’ve been wanting to blog more but idk what to blog about. The personal curriculum thing I’ve seen on YT sounds sooo cute. Maybe I can use that as motivation to zip through these classes for my BS.
Maybe I can blog about how I study & what I’m studying? 🤷🏾♀️
Idk how to close this out but I feel rude not saying anything ??
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